The following is my response to a question with regards to slavery & P.M.S.

 

"For the girls, how do keep a reign on yourself when you are gripped by pms? how do you keep yourself from biting Master's head off? (cause we all know that little voice we keep locked up during the rest of the month escapes from that cage and runs rampant.)

 



Well... I do the very best that I can. There have definitely been times in the years that I have been with my owner that my tone of voice hasn't been consistent with my chosen station. I have never met one slave who, when serving on a 24/7 basis for any length of time has not been "less than her cheerful self" from time to time.

I always tell myself, however, that while it may happen, it is not really something that is acceptable as it is nearly always going to be found displeasing. I am human and sometimes we may suffer failures like that but the bottom line is that I, as his slave, display strength and self-control at "moody" times and when I do fail, I strive always to do better.

I am fortunate that those times of failure are fairly infrequent and also that while my owner knows full well that he isn't required to make any allowance for "mood swings" etc., that he does have knowledge of my physical and psychological state and has so far been very understanding. He has (at times) made allowances for my physical discomfort, i.e. heating pad, meds, etc., but I'm never *allowed* to be bitchy to him and if I am, he most certainly isn't pleased. While I'm not really bitchy by nature specifically during the ol' monthly bill, I do suffer from more than one disease that negatively affects my hormone balance and chemistry on a regular basis - it is almost like having PMS at all times *groans* (New meds, however, are helping me fight the war! Yay!)

I am always reminding myself that there is no ailment or malady that justifies my being displeasing to him and to use it as an excuse would be more of a failure to me than the actual being bitchy would be if that makes any sense. This is why I have done everything I can to combat and conquer the root of the problems rather than allowing them to conquer me. I have surrendered to him, not my hormones *grin*

Maybe it is because I have been dealing with it so long that I have become better able to check my behavior and exhibit more self-control than I used to but believe me, there have been times when I have failed and I felt absolutely miserable about it. I suppose although he may be understanding at times, that it is me who suffers the most when my behavior is less than satisfactory. It is never acceptable to me regardless of what time of the month it is or what ailments I am suffering from.

I've not yet met a slave who is 100 percent pleasing all of the time, however, its certainly an excellent goal to strive for even if the road never ends!